I was reading the blog today of another angel's mother.
She was struggling with the thought that we chose our own trials before we come to earth.
I DO believe I chose my own trials. I believe that the trials I am to endure are neccesary to teach me the things that I need to learn in this life. I do believe that our path will be altered or maybe even completely changed by the choices we make in this life, but I also believe that the core things that shape me into who I am were pre-ordained before I came here.
I believe that I chose infertility, miscarriages, infant loss. I believe I chose to be a mother to premature babies, and children with challenges, I believe that a body that would constantly betray me was a part of this plan, to teach me the things I need to know to be the child that God needs me to be.
He has, through these trials taught me how to be patient, to have compassion, to love others, to give service, to have faith, and to endure.
I am stronger for what I have gone through. I am better, I am more aware of the value of life and the worth of souls.
I am sure it all made sense to me then, and I am sure it will make sense to me again. I can't wait for that day. I can't wait to be a mother to my daughter, and I am thankful for the plan of salvation that will allow it.
I am thankful for the people in my life who set such an example of how to be the kind of person I want to be. I try to follow in their footsteps and lead the kind of life Heavenly Father would be proud of. Some times I am better at living that life than others, but I know God sees my heart, He knows the path I am to walk and He leads me when I am lost.